One Direction Fanfic *Haitus*
I was sat in the large hall with my two best friends Lauren and Katy as well as my mum for support. I was auditioning for the X Factor in Manchester today. Singing has always been my favourite thing in the world; music gives me an outlet from the world and dramas of a 16 year olds life. I mean don’t get me wrong I love my best mates and my family and I’m not ugly or a loner or anything but at my school it’s classed as weird if you like music or listen to your iPod and not the teacher in class. You see Lauren, Katy and I go to a posh private school in Windsor but we’re not posh at all! My dad left my mum and I when I was born and had never got in contact but I wasn’t bothered. My mum has married Stephen who is like a dad to me. Anyway back to the present… I had turned 16 last week and was just in time to audition for the show. Lauren and Katy are my only friends who have heard me sing and have been saying for all the time we’ve been friends that I needed to audition, I’ve just never been old enough.
My number along with 5 others was called to go to a smaller room and be mic’d up ready. I hugged my mum and the girls before following the group into the room. I then got led to the side of the stage to watch the others performing before me! One boy stood out from the others in my group, he had amazing curly hair and green eyes sang ‘Isn’t she lovely’ by Stevie Wonder. He was absolutely amazing and has I was waiting in the wings after he came off, he gave me a cheeky wink as he came off with a yes from Simon and Nicole but a no from Louis! He jumped down the stairs grinning like a cheshire cat, he had gotten through! I congratulated him. “Thanks…I’m Harry” He replied looking into my eyes. I got lost in his eyes and took a minute to compose myself. “I’m Zoe! You we’re amazing” I replied blushing as usual. Whenever there is a cute boy around I blush…it’s so annoying! Harry grinned even more at my blush and winked as he walked off to celebrate. “Oh Zoe?” he called and turned back around “Good luck” he said cheekily and strolled off. God I don’t even know him and already I’m attracted to him!
As I stared after him looking stupid my name was called by Dermot! God I was so nervous. I walked onto the stage and introduced myself as Nicole smiled, Simon stared and Louis looked bored. Simon asked what I would be singing and then I started. I sung “Fifteen” by Taylor Swift. As I came to the end of the song, the audience stood up clapping and the judges smiled at me! As they gave me their feedback I walked off in a daze! I ran down the stairs that led to the side wing speechless. They had put me through! I ran and jumped at Lauren, Katy and my mum who were all screaming with me. This had been my dream for so long and I had never had to confidence to pursue music. I had always wanted to move to Nashville to try and get into the industry but my mum never let me, so X Factor was my best option!
My life had been very downhill from my 15th birthday. 15 was the day I thought I would be more mature and significant things would happen to me, just as Taylor Swift said in “Fifteen”. Well I was right in some ways; yea a lot did happen to me when I was 15 but just not good things…
It all started on my actual birthday. It was the last day of school and I had invited Lauren, Katy, Gina and Sharon (our other best friends) back to my house after our last day of school to chill out really. We walked to the park as usual and met up with some boys in our year, which included my crush James. I had liked him for a few months but never had the courage to say anything to him. That day at the park he told me he was in love with me and asked me to be his girlfriend. I thought he was the perfect boyfriend and it was the most perfect relationship. Hell, I was wrong.
FIRST DAY AT BOOTCAMP!
I was finally there at boot camp! I was so hyped but kind of sad to be leaving the girls and my mum but it’s only a week! As I walked into boot camp I automatically searched for the curly hair I had been thinking about for the past week. Suddenly a boy of about 19 came running up to me and hugged me! “HI!” he shouted “I’m Louis!” he continued, releasing me from the hug and grinning wildly. My first impressions on him, were obviously, who the hell is this weirdo. Yet something about him reminds me of Katy, they’re both absolutely crazy! I smiled back seeing as he was the first friendly person here “Hi! I’m Zoe” I replied smiling up at him. “Well Zoe” he said “You are officially my boot camp buddy” I laughed at this and we did the whole introduction thing. After a while Louis and I heard we a huge laugh and a bang so went to investigate, and found a blonde haired boy and Harry! I blushed straight away as he noticed me. Louis burst out laughing and I joined in as I realised the blonde boy had got his hand stuck in the vending machine whilst a packet of crisps were half dangling of one of the spirals. “Yes my hand is stuck!” The blonde boy, who turned out to be Irish cried “Now please, crazy strangers, help Styles get me out of here!” I carried on laughing until I realised I had no idea who he was. “Oh hey, I’m Zoe” I said giggling slightly still. “Well nice to meet you and all Zoe… but get me out of here!” I looked at Louis and Harry who were both on the floor nearly crying with laughter. Realising they would be no help I yanked the Irish boys arm out of the machine in one swift movement. “OW!” he cried out. I giggled again as he rubbed his arm. “Will teach you not to be so greedy” I said with a wink to let him know I was joking. Harry and Louis finally contained themselves to stand up and as they did, I caught Harry looking at me and my blush came right back.
“Hi” I said shyly, as he was still staring at me. “Uhh, hey” Harry replied blushing as he looked away. “As I said before, nice to meet you Zoe, I’m Niall.” The Irish boy burst out with. Louis then look charge realising I was being shy, he grinned at Niall and Harry and introduced himself by bowing. What a weird boy he is. I giggled at Louis’ stupidity and Harry smiled at me again. I finally spoke as Niall and Harry were both looking at me now whilst Louis was getting some skittles out of the vending machine. “So how old are you guys?” I asked as Louis cane back with two bags of skittles and handed me a pack. “Thank you Lou…” I added. “I’m 16 and so is Styles” Niall replied. “What about you?” He carried on, as we settled in the corridor. Weird I know, but there wasn’t anywhere else to sit. “I’m 19 and Zoe’s 16” Louis said cheerily as his tongue went blue from the skittles he was eating! I burst out laughing at this as did Harry and Niall. Louis just looked at us like we were crazy and carried on talking “Do you two know each other then?” he asked Harry and I. “We met quickly at the manchester auditions.” Harry replied. “Ahh” Louis replied stroking his chin, as if he had a beard there. I looked around our small circle as everyone yet again burst out laughing. I could tell we would all be great friends, which was the thing I was worried about, at school I was always shy and reserved and the James situation made me worse, but these guys were great. As my eyes drifted past Niall, who was sat next to me, and onto Harry I smiled as I caught him looking at me too! I blushed bright red and quickly averted my eyes to my skittles packet again. “So…” Louis started “Who here is in a relationship ‘ey?” he asked, and I inwardly groaned, the one question I had been dreading had to be asked! Yet i was curious to know if Harry had a girlfriend. Niall replied first, “I broke up with my girlfriend before I auditioned cause I knew I had to concentrate on the competition.” Louis nodded understandingly and turned to me. “Ummm, it’s a long story” I said, stalling but I knew Louis wouldn’t give in. Harry replied to me then “We have time” He said softly looking at me with intense green/blue eyes. I began my story “It started just as a crush on James.” I then told them how he confessed he “loved” me, and you can believe them quote marks, and how we were together for nearly a year, when he dumped me suddenly for no reason. “The next day at school, he walked in hand in hand with my best friend dice primary school and kissed her right in front of me. I never spoke to them again, and got a whole new set of friends, but haven’t been out with anyone since. He was my first love, and broke my heart after saying Forever and Always.” I broke down as I said the last part and tears started running down my face, Louis pulled me tightly into a hug, while Harry and Niall rubbed my back, trying to soothe me. “I am so so sorry Zo” Louis said. Harry also said “If I ever meet him, I’m gonna kill him.” I pulled away from Louis, who was starting to be one of the best friends I’ve ever had, as I wiped my eyes happy I hadn’t worn make-up today. “Sorry I cried guys, but I’m glad I told you all.” I said as I leant against the wall again. “Is that why you sang “Fifteen” at your audition? Because you were fifteen when you met James?” Harry questioned, I looked at him in shock. “You saw my audition?” I asked as he nodded helping himself to my skittles. “I relate to every single Taylor Swift song for different reasons, and yea “Fifteen” was about how stupid I was to fall in love with James, but I don’t think it was even real love. I didn’t get butterflies or anything like I do with…” I stopped suddenly realising I was about to say “you” that would of been bad! The boys looked at me weirdly and I coughed to break the silence. “Never mind” I said. Louis and Niall laughed as I blushed. Seemed I was doing that a lot in front of Harry. He grinned cheekily at me. Eager to get attention off me, I asked Louis whether he had a girlfriend. “No but I’m looking” he replied with a wink and a I laughed “Sorry Lou, but your more of a friend to me!” I said grinning. Niall by this time was lying down laughing, seems he finds everything funny! “Well I’m single too” Harry said between laughs. Soon after that we got up and headed to the main hall, to scout out some proper food. As we walked, Harry turned around and whispered softly to me “I thought your audition was amazing, by the way.” I looked into his deep eyes and blushed, feeling the sparks between us.
An hour later, as we finished lunch, we were called together as one large group to be told what songs we would be performing. I stood with Louis, Harry, Niall and two other boys Liam and Zayn who we had met in the canteen. I know it’s probably weird that I am just hanging out with boys, but I just think they’re great company compared to bitchy girls you see on these kind of shows. As we were stood on the front row, I looked back at the people around us. I saw a few girls that looked approachable and a few cute boys but no one caught my eye as Harry had! Simon started by saying the boys would chose between The Wanted “Gold Forever” or The Fray “Never Say Never”, then it came to us girls, we could choose between The Saturdays “Ego” and Taylor Swift “Last Kiss”. My breath caught in my throat when I heard this and I gripped Louis’ hand tighter. He looked down at me confused but I just shook my head at him. I couldn’t explain why “Last Kiss” tore me apart, I’d break down again. It bought back so many memories, but I knew I should sing it. The emotions I get when I sing or even listen to that song are so mixed and I know they want emotion. As soon as they had announced the other songs, which I didn’t even process in my mind, I walked away quickly, telling Louis I needed the toilet. I walked down the corridor until I found the spot by the vending machine. I sank down onto the floor pulling my iPod out my jeans pocket as I slid down the wall. I instantly clicked on Taylor Swift and “Last Kiss” as I let the lyrics, I already knew so well flow through my brain. As it got to the chorus I noticed Harry sit down next to me. By this time in the song I had tears rolling down my face. Harry silently put his arm around me and pulled me close, whilst sliding a headphone out my ear and putting it in his ear just as the chorus finished and the bridge came on -
“So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep,
And I’ll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe,
And I’ll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are,
I hope it’s nice where you are.
And I hope the sunshines and it’s a beautiful day,
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed…”
Harry turned me to face him and pulled out the headphones. He then asked me softly “This song means a lot to you, doesn’t it?” I nodded at him, not trusting my voice and he pulled me tightly against his chest. The unspoken words, that he understood and was here for me laying in the air.
After a few silent minutes in Harry’s arms, I pulled away, and smiled gratefully at him. “Thank you Harry” I spoke softly. He replied with a smile, pulling me up from he ground. “Let’s go find Lou and the boys” he said not letting go of my hand as we walked down back to the canteen. As we walked into the canteen, we were immediately drawn to an Irish laugh we knew was Niall’s. Louis dragged me into a bone-crushing hug as soon as I sat down next to him. “Are you okay Zo? We were really worried” He said and all the boys nodded in agreement “I’m fine now guys, thanks. Just the song. Harry helped though” I relied smiling shyly at Harry when I mentioned him. He grinned at me, as Niall cheekily said “I bet Harry helped” and winked at me! I blushed as all the boys burst into laughter. Harry luckily came to my rescue once again, changing the subject, asking what song everyone was going to sing. Louis was going to sing ‘Never Say Never’, as was Harry and Liam, whilst Liam and Niall were both singing ‘Gold Forever’. “What are you singing Zoe” Liam asked me…”Umm I’m singing ‘Last Kiss’.” I replied quietly and Harry grabbed my hand, giving it a reassuring squeeze. “it reminds me of my ex-boyfriend, so I relate to it so much” I carried on wanting Liam and Zayn to know, and understand as well. Liam grabbed me into a hug as Zayn did after. I smiled around the table, I had known these 5 boys one day, and yet I felt closer to them than many of my friends back home, thinking about home, I started to subconsciously pairing up my girls back home with these boys. I suddenly asked if the guys had any siblings wondering. “I have a sister Gemma” Harry said, Louis had a few younger sisters, Liam had two older sisters, Zayn has 3 sisters and Niall has a twin called Eloise. I was an only child, so was happy to know the boys had tons of sisters I could get to know!
At the end of the day, we walked back to the hotel all the bootcamp contestants were staying in (it’s a pretty big hotel!). Harry and Louis were sharing a room, Liam and Niall were, and Zayn was sharing a room with a boy called Aiden. I went to my room and walked in to see a girl about my age called Cher unpacking her things. “Hey!” she said as I walked in “Your Zoe right? I’m Cher.” I replied and smiled as I started to unpack to. As soon as I had unpacked my essentials I stood up “Sorry Cher…I promised I would meet some of the boys, to chill, but will definitely see you later yeah?” I asked. She smiled and said she was going to meet someone called Katie and we could definitely chat later. I walked off down the corridor to Louis and Harry’s room where we were all going to meet. When I got there everyone else what there, chatting so I sat down next to Niall as we put a movie on. I noticed Harry glancing at me through the whole of ‘Saw’. Which was not my choice! I hate scary movies, so wasn’t enjoying it. I excused myself to get a drink and as I did Harry or up too. “You okay Zo?” he asked studying my face. I nodded and confessed I was scared, he didn’t laugh, which I thought was sweet and took my hand, sitting me next to him on the floor, putting his arm around
my shoulder in the process.
As soon as the film had finished Liam bought up our songs. We agreed to all sing a part of our songs, just so the others could tell us if it was okay, I was so nervous about performing it in front of Simon Cowell! When it got to my turn to sing I knew exactly what part I would sing.
- I do remember, the swing of your step,
Life of the party, your showing off again,
And I’d roll my eyes, then you’d pull me in,
Im not much for dancing, but for you I did,
Because I love your handshake, meeting my father,
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets,
How you’d kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something,
There’s not a day I dont miss, those rude interruptions…
As I sung this, I closed my eyes letting the lyrics flow through my mind once again…but this time all I could think about was an amazing green eyed, curly haired boy, called Harry Styles.
The next day, we were to perform our songs, in front of Simon, Nicole and Louis, plus the other contestants. To say I was nervous would be an understatement but I knew once I got on that stage they would disappear. I was sat in my hotel room, with Cher talking about, you guessed it, boys! It was nice to talk to a girl just like I do with Katy, Lauren, Gina and Sharon. “So what’s going on with you and the boys?” Cher asked with a smile. I laughed and blushed “Do you mean Louis, Zayn, Liam, Niall and Harry?” I asked stalling for time, when she nodded I carried on “Louis is like the brother I never had, as well as my best friend, same as all the other guys” I smiled, thinking how crazy it is how close I am to the boys even only knowing them a day. Cher smiled at me, “But you don’t like any of them as more than friends?” she asked with a wink. I blushed deep red, my mind drifting of course to the curly haired boy who had caught my eye from first sight. “Ha so there is someone!” Cher said, laughing at my blush. “Okay, I don’t like them, but he makes me blush and I feel really happy with him, after my ex I have had trust issues but with him it’s different” I said smiling to myself. “You so do like him! Who is it?” Cher replied. I blushed again. “Harry” I said, blushing yet again! She grinned at me and aww’d. Laughing at her reaction, I made her promise not to tell anyone.
A knock at the door 20 minutes later awoke me from my thoughts. Cher had gone to meet Katie, so I was listening to my iPod. I opened to door to see Louis grinning, he pulled me out the door, closing it behind me, explaining how we were going to watch a movie then head to the main hall to perform later. When we got to his and Harry’s room everyone else was already sat on the sofa and floor with the main menu for The Hangover on their TV. I laughed at their movie choice and sat down next to Louis and Harry on the floor. Harry grinned at me as Niall, eager to watch the film, pressed play. I grinned back and he put his arm around my shoulder. “Ey! What’s going on here?” Louis exclaimed looking at Harry and I. I blushed as all the boys turned to look at Harry and I. I looked up at him and noticed he was mouthing something at Louis over my head. I blushed and looked away just a Harry looked down at me and blushed too! Harry coughed in the awkward moment and we all turned back to watch the film. I was so unsure of my feelings and Harry’s about everything that to be honest I felt like crying. This was another problem with me, I got so emotional about tiny things. I looked at Louis signaling I needed to talk to him, we got up and went to their little kitchen area ‘getting drinks’. “Lou, I don’t know what to do” I said as soon as we entered. He instantly knew what I was talking about “Well do you like him as more than a friend?” He asked rationally. I nodded not trusting my voice once again. “Well then, go tell him” Louis exclaimed. “Lou! Are you kidding?” I asked him “I can’t tell him! He doesn’t like me and I don’t want to ruin our friendship. It might just be a crush anyway, I’ve only known him a day” I said, trying to convince myself as well as him. He laughed “Zo, do you really think he doesn’t like you? He hugs you whenever he can, he comforted you about the whole James and Last Kiss situation” I frowned at Louis “But you guys all did that too when I told you about James” I argued, he gave me a look as if to say “stop being so stupid and realize he likes you!” I sighed just as Harry walked in the kitchen. “Hey Zo. What’s wrong?” He asked coming over to me. “I’m right and you know it Zoe.” Louis said before swiftly leaving the room. I sighed again and Harry gave me a confused look “Don’t worry Harry, I’ll get over it” I said, faked a smile at him and left the room nearly in tears. He doesn’t like me and I really like him. What fun.
The next day I woke up early as it was the day we were performing! I groaned as my alarm went off, I had stayed up until about 1 am texting, you guessed it, Harry. We had talked about everything and anything really, you know the types of conversations where you talk about random things. After showering I changed into leggings, red high top converse and a crop top. I had arranged with Harry last night for him and the boys to get me from my room and walk to the main hall together. Soon after Cher had left, there was a knock on my door and I hear Louis call “The carrot monster has come to get you!” I giggled as I heard laughs from the other boys outside. I opened the door and was, well, attacked by Louis hugging me! “Lou, have you had sugar?” I asked as we headed to the canteen. I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned to come face to face with Harry. “Where’s my hug, beautiful?” he whispered quietly. I blushed at him calling me beautiful and threw my arms around his neck, he dragged me closer so our torso’s were touching. We stood there for probably longer than necessary but I felt safe in his arms, which I know is bad. I’m starting to realise how much I like him already.I pulled away reluctantly as Louis cleared his throat. He simply said “Told you so” to me and grabbed mine and Harry’s hands dragging us along skipping like the crazy boy he is! I blushed as I thought of Louis comment and what Harry said. Why did he call me beautiful? Was it just a flirty comment? Did he actually mean it? Or was it a mistake? No boys had ever called me beautiful not even James. I mean I was average, messy blonde hair, dull green eyes. I had no clue what Harry would ever see in me, let alone call me beautiful for. By this time we were sat in the main hall! Simon, Nicole and Louis walked in, all of us cheering as we sat squashed on the stage. “Okay” Simon said, “Girl’s you’ll be singing first. We will do it in groups so the first group I want is “Cher Lloyd, Rebecca Ferguson, Zoe Parkinson, Amelia Lily and Katie Waissel” I sighed, being the first was always daunting for me, but at least I knew someone in my group. Louis squeezed my hand, smiling down at me. The lists carried on, I ignored them until it got to the boys, Louis was speaking now “Okay, the first group of boys, Liam Payne, Zayn Malik, Niall Horan, Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles.” I grinned up at the boys, they were together. They all looked relieved and happy about who they were performing with. We walked off the stage for one hours practise, then it was starting. A random camera man walked backstage, standing on a chair “First group of girls please come through!” I stood up quickly, looking nervously at the boys. Murmurs of good lucks from the boys, Louis dragging me into a hug as did Harry. I inhaled Harry’s musky smell, blushing again as he released me, I looked up to see him grinning at me. I turned and started walking over the Cher and the other girls, “Oh Zoe?” I heard Harry shouting from behind, turning to look I caught him flashing his dimples at me “Good luck.”